Hello!

How was everyone’s Christmas? Mine was great, I got a digital camera and a whole lot of expensive things that I don’t know how to use to go along with it, I also got a Distillers t-shirt from my brother and money from my grandmother.

Oh. My. God.

I have to have surgery tomorrow on my foot because I stepped on a sewing needle and it SNAPPED off in my foot. It’s right on the joint. And because I’ve been trying to bend my toe; it’s moved deeper and deeper. It’s horrible. It hurts like a mother fucker. But now they have pumped me with pills (14 pills a day) so it feels ok. I’m really nervous about going to the hospital tomorrow. Not because of the actually surgery but because I HATE needles and I have to have two. Moo L

I have to use crotches, they hurt my arms…

Today, despite having a pin in my foot, I went out with Katja and Stacey. Katja got her “Monroe” pierced which is like a side lip piercing but on the top lip. It looks so good!

Then we met up with Amanda and Robin and we had heaps of fun. They are the cutest little buttons ever. And then we saw Mirandizzle in Starbucks. And we all Shmeh’d together! So fun.

These shadows, they do indeed weigh a ton, thank you for asking.

These shadows, I’m sure they are telling what you cannot.

They drift upon us so swift. A gasp.

You, once again, cannot see past the dark haze that seems to cloud your bleak future.

These shadows, they curl, they snap, they snigger and twirl.

Luring you into a false sense of nothing.

Nothing is ever to be said to me about these shadows for I have nothing to say to them.

These shadows, they whisper so sudden. They follow so quick at my heels.

These shadows, they lurk. Waiting till I look ahead; waiting for me to see the inevitable.

To scowl. To cry out in hopelessness.

These shadows wait for a black moment. A black spot.

In the dark confusion, I see a figure turn and smile. I know everything will be ok.

He turns and smiles and moves closer.

These shadows, they depart.

These shadows, their weight is lifted from my drained body.

They lift from me. They disappear. They twirl away, to someone else in that second you turn and smirk.

You turn and smile and move closer to me…everything will be just fine.

I wrote that, yes. comment, yes. now.